Luvin' every minute of it

Ahhh luv..

I (almost) forgot just how
great a sensation you are.
Almost, but.. not quite.
Yesterday, I slept soundly
in my usual daylight hours,
that I missed my baby's
four calls. Mid-afternoon
attempts at returning them
proved futile, as I had run
out of the required load.
Shite.

Navigating a new (?)phone is
always a bitch. Can I just
say that, it's twice the bitch
for cheap China knockoffs.
I'm slowly convinced that
impulse purchase was totally
uncalled for.
But, I'm rambling and
getting derailed again.

It's great to be in love again.
I know how frommage-y that
sounds, and its vomit-worthy
propensity to make you
hurl your cookies;
but fuck..
we're talkin' about me here.
After the tumultuous upheaval
that was my last so-called
relationship, I, like I said,
almost forgot..
..until she rescued me.

Funny thing is..
I didn't want to be rescued,
at first.
I thought I was being strong
like that. That I could weather
any and all storms.
That I could
let my pride and ego be
my divining rod through the
parched, barren, and scorched
steppes of planet heart,
burned beyond recognition to the
tenth degree..
I was beyond healing.
Or so I thought.
Or felt.
There were attempts to
reach out; to be touched, by her.
But I was yet beyond reasonable
comprehension.
Or perhaps, I comprehended,
but could not reason
with myself.

But, something happened.

It's not like I didn't
make attempts of my own,
to reach out;
to others.
But they didn't have the
right "feel."
Somehow, you know.
You go in, you get into
something, and you just know..
somehow, it doesn't feel right.
Pursuing Office girl was
definitely, absolutely
out.. of.. the.. question.
Interoffice affairs are a no-no.
Scratch that.

More so for Office girl 2.
She sounds like a b-movie sequel (lol)..
in reality, she was choice #1.
But she, too, was a no-no.
She was already attached,
thus unavailable.
Scratch two.

Then, there was Office girl's friend.
That didn't feel quite right, either.
Y'know the feeling, judging from
her likes, you just know that
a quick note comparison will
tell you she is soooo not for you.
A beer-swilling party girl-type
was never what my
future gf'd look like.
Not in my wildest imagination.
And, I have had some wild imaginings,
believe you me.

Then, there was Call center girl.
This spelled longshot, from the get-go.
And I do mean loooooooooooooooooongshot.
How long?
How far is the moon?
That long.
She was the friend of a friend.
The latter friend, being the younger sis
of a good friend.
The connections itself, were haywire.
Suffice it to say, this had adios
written all over it.
< shakes head, smiling >

Not that I was running out of options.
The world was my oyster.
But, turns out..
there was only one apple of my eye.
And I had not known it yet;
even if this apple hit me smack
dab in the proverbial blind eye.
I don't believe in epiphanies.
So.. I won't call it one.
Revelation, perhaps..

I'd be a total hypocrite
if I'd say I hadn't thought of
us being together.
I mean, we were well on our way.
Albeit haphazardly.
But, I said I wasn't ready..
that I couldn't give what I didn't have.
And I meant it.
But deep inside, there was something.
I knew it.
She knew it.
I guess, it was just
a matter of time.
But, her being her..
she did not have the
luxury of time.
Or so she said.
She's anal like that.
I, on the other hand,
can't say I had the
luxury of time.
I just didn't know a
timer was ticking..
and that my heart was
an improvised explosive
device like that.

To make a long story short,
whenever I thought of her,
everything seemed to feel right.
As in, right as rain.
Spot-on.
On target.
Bullseye.
A one-hit kill.
Not so much a headshot,
but.. a heartshot.

And spending more time with her
opened my eyes; and inevitably,
my heart, as well.
Do I regret having held back and
waited.
No.
I think it actually helped.
Do I regret having thrown caution
to the wind.
Did that sound like a complaint?
Do cows eat grass?

Needless to say,
we're no longer two people.
We're a couple now.
We're no longer two.
We are one.

And I wouldn't want to
have it any other way.
And I know neither would she.

I love you, babe.

G.U.T.I.

I did not know
what you were about
Something called "love"
made me wanna find out
I did not think
you could ever care
But I'm outta control
coz you're takin' me there

I couldn't believe
our love would last
It's comin' on stronger,
comin' on so much faster

Get used to it
coz I'll be around
Yeah ya better get used to it
All my love

Get used to it,
don't let me down
You pulled me in,
so don't turn me around
You didn't hesitate
and told me just how you feel
There ain't no mistake,
this time it's for real

I'll be around you
Because
I'm crazy about you
I'll be around you, baby
You know
I can't live without you
I'll be around ya, baby
Because
I'm hungry for your love

Get used to it
All our love.