Flaws

I have my share.
Who doesn't.
But, never mind
the rest.
This is about moi.
My fault?
In so many words..

I'm a spoiler.

I lavish my lady love
with stuff.
Which shouldn't be.
Or should it?
Who knows?
But, I'm like that.
I have been, ever since.
And, it's spelled disaster.

Could it be more than
just spoiling?
Could it be I'm too much of a..
nice guy?

Is there such a thing as
being a too-nice guy??
I'm not lifting my own bench here,
I'm not trying to boast;
just calling it as it is.
Not that it's a good thing;
I think it is, and
at the same time, it isn't.

Perhaps I should balance it out.
Easier said than done.
Coz when I fall for someone,
I fall hard.
And all of a sudden,
I go out of my way to do
nice things for this someone.
Excuse me..
special someone.
Then, the cycle begins.
Caught up in the rapture.
The throes of passion.
But, I'm getting ahead of myself.

Methinks, I should rethink.
Though I know it's gonna be hard,
a modicum of caution is in order.
Coz I threw caution to the wind..
but sensibility shouldn't
go along with it.

It's hard.
But I'll try.